18th of January 1955
I’m as cold as ice, my body shaking, teeth chattering. I’m desperate to go home, to leave this refugee camp, but everyone is saying it’s too dangerous. I’m feeling homesick, I’m missing my friends, my family, my way of life. I’m just simply down in the dumps, I feel like a bandicoot on a burnt ridge, unknown, unwell, just hopeless.
There is nothing remaining in our small town, just the few things we managed to gather before leaving. My Mother is sick and is worried about what’s going to happen next, where are we going to end up?
9th of February 1955
Struggling to breathe, gasping for air, I feel like I’m falling! My nightmares just keep increasing each and every night. I’m still thinking about when I fled my town and my country. I feel unsafe here, I don’t know where my family is, and they don’t know where I am! It’s just me and my Mum, swimming in a fish bowl. I should be grateful for where I am, but I just want to be at home, in my own bed, safe! The Syrian refugee camp is cold and packed.
13th of March 1955
Over the past week, stories have been heard that refugee camps have been targeted and attacked. They lost everything, even the things they brought with them from when they fled the country. They are being transported to the nearest refugee camps in the located area, so recently we have had 19 refugees transported to the same camp as us, some being people we know.
24th of April 1955
Yesterday I caught a well-known sickness that one of the refugees brought in from Malaysia. Its horrible, I feel horrible. The doctor has come to see me twice and has told me it Is a death situation! What do I do? My Mother has been put into the tent next to me so she doesn’t catch the disease, because of her age there is more chance of her dying then me! I don’t want that to happen!
15th of May 1955
Well I am fully recovered from my disease. I am so happy, my Mother has returned to our tent! Yesterday I received a letter from my best friend Charlize, she is doing well and misses me heaps. She has found out she is getting transported from the Malaysian refugee camp to another. But she doesn’t know what one yet. My Mother and I are happy in the Syrian Refugee Camp and can’t wait to be returned to a new location where we can start a new life style. But it may be a while until then.
25th of June 1955
I can’t believe it! Charlize, my best friend has been transported to the Syrian Refugee Camp! I saw her at dinner! She has been staying in the tent next (tent 17, I’m tent 18) to me for the past few hours and I didn’t even notice! I have been receiving letters from her the past few months and she didn’t even mention that she was moving to the same refugee camp as me! She apparently was moved here to be with someone she knows.
24th July 1955
Yesterday was the hardest day of my life, the war was tough, but losing a Dad is the worst thing that has happened to me. He had fled the war with gunshot wounds to the head and chest, but by the time he was placed on the boat, it was too late. I want to return to my home, to see what is remaining of our small coastal town. I miss my Dad so much but I know that there are others feeling the same way as me, and it’s not fair. I need to remember the good times I had with him, before the war, before all of this happened! If it wasn’t for the War, maybe he would still be here. I miss our family, our home, our family days, just my way of life. I miss everything and just want my Dad back, I can’t sleep. The visions of him, lying there, on the boat hopelessly, dying, and they are just standing there, doing nothing. It’s just not fair. I hate it, it will never be the same again. Sooner or later, ill forget what he sounds like, looks like, I just won’t remember anything about him, the way he sang to me. The words he said. Everything.
6th August 1955
Well, I have just packed up all of my stuff, and now I am sitting on the boat, watching the waves go by and the people aboard. Charlize is to the left of me and my Mum on the right, holding onto our stuff tight, it is a long trip to England on the boat. I just can’t wait to start a new life, to live without fear, and to be happy with the people I am with now! I can’t wait. I just wish I never have to flee the war again!